Life is short,
Break the rules,
Forgive quickly,
Kiss slowly,
Love truly,
Laugh uncontrollably,
And never regret anything that made you smile.

a day where a "close-to-a-great-game" was played against Chilli Peppers.

i watched a game with teamwork & spirit played from Invictus from the sidelines...
i saw deanna finally getting her game together, driving the basket, hustling with the opponents; i saw zhihui taking confident shots, making drives & good passes to her teammates, i saw amanda taking shots & going for her own rebounds, taking a confident role of a pointguard...
it's nice to see them play well because you know Invictus has grown!

as for me, hmmm...i did stoopid stuff on-court, no good shots taken, poor defence given, bad attitude etc...come to think of it, i truly sucked as a bball player. i tried fighting but it seems like there was lil' effort. I lost the fighting spirit.
Something happened at home the night before, it freaked me. I need to protect my family, be there when I can, stay strong for them. But what did I do? I had to head for work, then come home before heading for the game. Putting on a great smile & laughing everything off because I shldn't let my personal stuff affect the team's game, but maybe subconsciously I didn't put it aside. Sorry.

I also wanna step up for the team. I really really wanna have a 2nd win because I believe Invictus can achieve that, but I'm the one holding them back for the past games. How ironic can I be? I see myself losing the fighting spirit, I need to get it back and be focused on my game. I want to be a great player by giving my teammates good assists & passes, that's the first thing I wanna do for them, then I wanna contribute by making good shots & drives, plus good defence. 但是，心有余而力不足.

So what if I can perform during trainings? I'm as good as a training player but never a good competitive player. How do I move to the next phase?

i dunno how to hate you even though you want me too...maybe so you won't feel guilty, but i also can't seem to trust you. i realise...i feel happier when you dun appear during trainings but somehow, somewhere you'll juz appear...and the silly thing is, i still wish the best for you, to be a better player...
how i wish i could hate you too...

Dear Lord, I pray for your strength to cope with my new job and being able to train with the team I love. It's difficult & tiring to cope but being able to to do what I love with the people I love is like being in a safe haven, at least I know when I'm with them, I wanna do the best I can for them. Plus, I know he's there when I'm not around to take care of the gals during training. Thank you for him!!! I also pray that you grant him the strength to carry him through each and everyday.
Lastly, Lord, I pray Invictus will be able to achieve another win having only 2 games left. I pray we're able to end with something good!
Amen!!!

there'll always be people you meet in life that try to break you down.
it's how you pick up from there & move on & show you're the stronger person, and not be taken down by them...

Dear God, I pray for strength to go thru' each & everyday in my life. There are alot of struggles that I need to face in my life but I pray that I'm blessed with your love & strength to carry on with future days of my life. I also pray that you bless those who loves me & whom i love & care about, that everyday will be a day of joy & hope that they'll find amidst the struggles. And thank you for them who has helped & influenced in my growth as a person thru' these years. I hope I do the same for them too. Amen!